I guess its not ok to be alright with your body and bring to life what you imagine!!!! huh? makes lots of sense i thought thats what art is for to bring to life what goes through your mind. I HAVE NEVER made porn pictures EVER and i NEVER will! but to some ppl my pictures are to much for them to handle. Which is fun i have no pictures of my body parts no nipples, vag areas or such like that! its amusing is all
You know i dont understand why people go out of there way to be as*holes about others artwork. Not ALL OF US ARE NORMAL! not all of us think and act like you do, not all of us like seeing normal everyday artwork! ITS BORING! We want to see change originality! Sorry i f i dont spell something words right! lol i gots a SPelling disorder XD
so if you do have a problem with nude pictures DONT LOOK AT THEM they all have warnings on them! and if its cause your a woman who doesnt like seeing other woman naked or just being sexy then DONT LOOK OR COMMENT!!! Or if its because youre agaisnt that kind of stuff then DONT LOOK ETHER! I am completely agaisnt dirty porn pictures but i do like nudes! but they have to be artistic! and no a dirty poise with a filter on it IS NOT ARTWORK!
Just thought id get that off my chest (XD i said chest)<—————haha joke see f u n n y.
Also some of us enjoy life and enjoy laughing weather that would be not very mature thing to laugh at or not OH WELL at least were not stuck up as*holes who hate their lives and take it out on everyone else!!! GR XD
I know perverted name for this entry.
I just wanted to write stating i DONT wear wigs! the colors of my hair are usually real or i have a filter on the WHOLE piece!
and also any of the pictures i do for anime or cosplay i KNOW its just a anime! BIG DEAL! cant a girl have fun! I’m not a slut but im also not a prude! I’m ok with my “girls” maybe not my whole body which is why i dont have the whole thing on here!! XD I’m picky about my body! but what girl isn’t. But if your one of those people who arent happy with their bodies and go around and make other people feel bad too then LEAVE MY PAGE NOW! i dont want someone who is that hateful toward others on my page! im a “hippie” type of girl! Yes i bitch and rant BIG DEAL! i have things to talk about! and im not afraid to say them ether! Im sorry but to be a artist you have to have some balls. Weather they are real or just metal ones on your lip/nose ring! thats the whole point of art. Pushing bountaries! Being out side of box! Showing people the OTHER side! it might be scary creep weird goofy or just plain F*cked up but oh well at least we have enough courage to show those ideas to the world!
But till i have something else to rant about
This is about two pieces of art work i made and put on Devaintart! Ill put a link down belllllooooowwwww so you can go see them!
HUGS MUCH LOVE ❤
I’ve been watching Naruto ALOT. I’ve had Naruto meets his father on repeat for the past hour! Naruto is the only character i’ve ever found who has the same life, feelings, and admirations as i do! His parents remind me of my Aunt and uncle! My real parents as i call them. I use to be picked on so much when i was younger because i was the only one in elementary who didnt have a mother. I use to be told i was worthless because even my own mom didnt want me! and i know im not much to talk about my past (well childhood) but i feel i need to! Ive keep this in for far to long and not many ppl if any really know! All of my childhood i couldnt even stand to watch a family commercial! I didnt enjoy the holidays not even christmas because i knew i didnt get to hug my mom or even be put to bed on christmas eve! Sure my father was there but to me he didnt exist. He’s always been in the shadows all my life and i wish i could really say otherwise but that would be lying! I am 19 years old and i feel like im 30. I’ve seen more then most 19 year olds. Sure lots of kids say that but come say hi to me one day you’ll see it right away. I smile through mostly everything except lately. I havent the energy to even try to smile. Sometimes depression gets the worst of me and i REALLY try to get out of it but it feels more like crawling! I’m so use to bad things happening to me that i cant even try to keep ahold of anything good anymore. I use to smile no matter what! My spirit was bright but now that im older and has been clouded to say. Im trying to clear it all up. Slowing i am getting there. Sure most people think they need to have someone else help them through it but life leasons are something you have to figure out by yourself. I know this far to well. I’ve never really had anyone up until i was 11 years old to help me. I was 3 when my mother dead (well to me anyway) i had to listen to countless people talk on and on about how sad my life was and how i must feel ALL THE TIME! They thought they were helping and all they were really doing was reminding me! Reminding me how alone i was. Many people wanted me to open up and i never did till about 16 and i do wish i didnt let all my walls down. I met a man. but that didnt last long as to why i wish i never left all my walls down! But as i like to say you live to learn! Ive got a professional Photography job and im also training as manager. So the next chapter in my life is going to begin. and who knows maybe ill met the one i’m to be with. I hope so that way i can have a family and know that i can be happy. Sure most teens my age want fame and money not me ive always wanted a family! Thats really my hearts desire! Well I’m going to go and shower. HUGS ❤ ❤ Taylor
I know i go on and on about TMNT but I think i really know why i love them so much.
They and i have so much in common! No one really understands us nor really wants to try!
We are all outcasts, freaks, worthless to this world except our friends/family. If only they
were real! I’d finally have someone who REALLY understands why i cry at night. BTW I am
NEVER this open with anyone but im sick of ppl misreading me and my words! They know
It truly means to love, be lone, afraid, worthless just like i do!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=81MNHucsTQo I just watched this and it is the best AMV
i have EVER SEEN IN MY LIFE!!!! Much love to that person!! that is video editing talents right
Today as you know was april fools day! well i almost forgot!! XD I only remembered due to this creepy smily thing on Deviantart.com XD you can see him in the picture above! god i love deviant! they really know how to keep you on your toes
well i must go my last week at O.D. thank god. Goodbye cashier dead end job!!! hello money and world
I know alot of you dont know anything or very much about my past!
Well here it goes i will tell you anything and everything about me!
I was born June 17. I am currently in my early adulthood. I have natural green eyes and dark brown hair. I am 5 foot 4 and a half! I have a scar on my left check of my face from a step father which happened at the age of 8 or 9, a scar on my right calf from a metal frame of a bed that cut half my caff off which happened at the age of 7, and other scars on my right arm from cutting (depression) myself. I wear glasses because i am near and far sighted!
I have always been into art. The latest i can remember is my Mom got my some clay when i was about 4 years old. And i use to sing about everything when i was around the same age till about 9 years old!
I lived with my dad and mom till about 4 years old in bellefonte, then with my aunt for a few short years in centre hall, i lived with my nana when i was 6 till 7 in flordia then my step mother till i was 11 i think in boalsburg! Then with my dad and his old girlfriend till i was 13 in boalsburg! then moved to millheim at 12. Lived with my friend megan prisk that summer. Then i lived with my dad and his old girlfriend for my 13th year of living. Then i moved june 17th my 14th birthday to my aunts i lived there will i was 18. Then moved to my fathers house in millheim with my brother and him!
vie lived in the bellefonte school district (preschool till 3d grade), boalsburg school district (4 – 5th grade), state college school district (6-8th grade), and penns valley school district (9th till 12th grade)!
i had a pcyholoist from age 5 or 6 till i was 13. It started after my mom disappeared, i was to young to handle the truth then. I literally thought my mother was dead and thats what i told ppl. Because when i was younger i could not remember anything! I blocked it all out without even relizing it! I couldn’t read a normal sentence till i was 10 years old! I had a REALLY bad reading and spelling disorder! I can now read just about anything english but my spell isn’t great yet but im still working on it!
I use to be daddies little girl because i never really had my mom there! Now i am my aunt and uncles kid! My aunt always jokes about how much im like my uncle! NO PREVERTS my aunt and uncle did not have me! My mom sherry and my dad James did!!!!
When i was 13 everything came back to me! I didn’t have a relationship with my father anymore! (from 14 till 18 i did not EVER speak to my father)
I’ve been at my cousin’s house here at 7mountains camp ground! I’ve been watching the camp ground for them! They have two beautiful kitties named Charle and Penny. and they have a gekco!!!
I wish i had my own place here! Its so quiet and no ones here!!! No hearing every footstep someone makes or hearing a fucking tv all day and night! BTW i DONT watch TV. I hate it!! its stupid all the same shit just different actors!! GR I do like criminal minds, house, chowder, and damn cant think of anymore!!!
i love the way Tool makes the atmosphere feel! brings back old memories that i shared with my ex best friend Josh! I miss him a great deal but he has a girlfriend now so of course friendship with another girl is not a option! Stupid i know but that is society now!
I keep sitting here thinking of my new job as a pro photographer! and how much money ill be making but i still dont have someone special to share it with! but i guess that will come in time!
someone i work with said that the one guy i was with a week or so ago wants me as more then a f-friend and im sorry but i dont see that! hes a player and not worth my time, body or love! Had that before not dealing with that again!
One thing i will try my hards on in my life will be meeting Linkin Park!!! Megan and i will meet them if its the last thing i do! I am determined too!! They got me through so much in my life!
Well i gots to go,
i feel so alone right now. I hate it. I just want to cry my heart out. I wish i had what most people have. A. Normal. Life. or something close to it!
I wish they were real. The only thing that I’ve ever felt truly close to! I know it’s silly! But i’ve never had a mom and never really had a dad. I’ve been past around to every family but never really been taking care of by the ones i’m to be taken care of! I’ve always had to fight for what i wanted ALWAYS! Love, money, life, happiness! I just one thing to want to fight for me! and maybe thats why i fell for Raphael. Because he always fights for his family! Why cant i find someone like that. I’m not searching for it but i do dream about it every night. To be held by someone who truly cares for you! Someone to protect me for once. Instead of having to protect myself all the time. I’ve almost given up all hope when i was 14. I didnt want to wake up anymore. It’s still fresh in my mind the feeling i had that day. As i was bleeding out i felt freedom like I could breath for once! Not having to make sure i was doing this for someone or watching what i was doing at all times! I should have dead that day but strangely i stopped bleeding. Cut was so deep, long and followed the vain prefectly there was no reason for me to have lived. But here i am. So there most be something improtant i’m here to do.
I love the TMNTs because they know my pain and i know theirs! I stick myself in their world to keep the pain away. But sometimes like now its creeps up and drags me under! I fight my hardest to keep smiling, laughing or just not letting it take a hold but it still does!
I’m going to bed to help this to go away,
I may be crazy and all but atleast my heart is pure and i’m here to love everyone in my life worth loving!
So go ahead call me names, make fun of me but just remember you will NEVER have someone care or protect you like i will or would!
I love you my Friends and Family.
It amazes me how much pain is caused by others making fun of others for being who they are. I was and still am a Freak! People make fun of me at work, when i’m out shopping, even at home! But one thing i know i have to stand by is the purity of my <3!
I will do what ever it stands to make this world see what is happening to it! Day by day love and caring for others dies!! I just CANT let that happen at all!! I am a empath! I can feel what each and everyone of you feels when i look into your eyes! I know when you hurt, are happy, sad, or just lost! But more and more ive been seeing empty eyes! It scares me! I never thought i could meet a soulless human but i have countless times in my life! It makes me SO ANGRY!! People think im going insane when i go on rants and such when really no one wants to listen to me so i MAKE them listen! I’ve been alone most of my life! Hell when i was a kid the most connection i had was with the Ninja turtles till i met Megan Prisk! and my world changed She’s been through just as much as i have. She sees the world just as i do. She may not be a empath but she can feel what i see due to our connection!!
Our mission in life is to change this world because it wont change on its own just as Gandhi said “Be the change that you want to see in the world.” And thats what were set out to be!!
Those of you that dont want us to change this world then fear us because Nether of us will NEVER STOP to get to our goal!
Love you world <3,