Going the Distance


So I’ve been seeing………………….. Let me rephrase that We were never even dating…….. I just put my heart on my sleeve again!
Like I just finished telling a friend! Theres she is doing it again! Same kind of guy and same situation! Gr I cant say i feel stupid cause I ALWAYS feel stupid!

God people really arent great with advice!! Why would you tell your friend whose really smart and has been through a SHIT ton of event in her life and sit there and say what everyone els says. LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKES!!!
FOR FUCK SAKE you dont know if its a mistake still after its over or you’re into deep! I really wish things were as easy to be done as it is to sit here and write these worthless words! Thats all they are is worthless!!! Worthless thoughts, ideas, inspirations, hopes, feelings, worthless everything!
I know you’re sitting there reading this going WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH U EMO KID! Idk maybe ask me whats wrong! Then DONT TELL ME what u think i should do just hug me and let me cry and be there! Why do people think they need to comment on everything some times actions speak louder then words! and to tell yeah the truth most of my friends speak far to much that they dont know how to shut up!

Just set my Facebook to Complete “Only me” setting! I figure why let those people who are NO GOOD with words to keep posting on my page! Its useless!

I’m getting a second and third job so I can move out into my own apartment! To get away from people! Then I’m saving a shit ton of money and just leaving! Going somewhere warm and open and new! no one knows me! To just start over and to stop being a failure to people or at least to try to not be! ( I can only hope right :/ )

I feel lost! Truely lost!

Anyway back on the track of the first part of these worthless words! I was we’ll call it “seeing” I was seeing this guy named Jesse! I really like him! Ive been seeing him for a month or so! I asked him the other day if I was his type and he said no not at all! I seriously feel like emotional shit right now! So I’m hanging out with him tomorrow……….. I’m going to show him what it REALLY looks like to just be friends! Since he told me he doesnt want a “real” relationship and has no intentions on dating me! I’m sorry but friends dont sleep together sexually! GOD he has me so pissed off! He was so romantic and was opening up to me! SO MANY MIXED SIGNALS RIGHT NOW!!!
When i talk to anyone else they just tell me everything I already know! Except for my bestie Megan She helps alot!!! ❤

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH……………….. I dont know weather crying or screaming would help!!

I’m just blank…………………………….

Im going to go…….. Later,

Taylor

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About sleepwalkingdreams

A green eyed daydreamer who is literally stuck in dream world. I'd much rather be asleep dreaming of what could be and one day will be. I've been through and seen alot in the short time I've been alive but I try my best to use my knowledge to better my life! View all posts by sleepwalkingdreams

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